being perfect!!

what is perfection?? i think there is a phase which comes in life where one wants to be perfect. this phase came in my life too. i wanted to be a perfect guy. all my decisions were based on so many things. i used to think a lot. i was so afraid of making mistakes. but then i realised what is perfection?? it needs to be measured. i found it cant be absolute. it can only be relative. like suppose i behaved better in this situatuation. but then also people opinion can vary. i might have behaved perfectly but to some one i might not. all these things made me try to please everyone i knew. and u know this made me displease one man. that was me. i had to sacrifice so much. it was me always who had to sacrifice his interests so that everybody else interest is fullfilled and they remain and they think i am perfect.

but one day i gave up. because in all this fight i found i was loosing myself. i was trying to be somebody else and Rachit was dying.

but i would like to say this phase gave me the power to think and the ability to sacrifice which is quite important.

now i try to be good and not perfect and i try to be me.